My name is Britney. I was serially abused by my uncle when I was a child that I forgot how to love a man. I had the mindset that all men needed from me was sex. So, whenever I allowed one around me, I gave them what they wanted and we go our separate ways the next day. My mind took a rapid shift when I met Arizona male escorts.
After enduring a series of abuse as a teenager, I left for Arizona the very moment I got the chance. I wanted to leave my past life behind. I thought I could. The moment I boarded that flight to Arizona, I thought it was freedom. However, my past followed me wherever I went. I thought I could forgive and move on, but I still felt stuck in my past even though I have convinced myself that I have forgiven my uncle. It’s complicated, right?
I considered myself lucky to get a job on arrival. No matter how small the pay was, it helped me to forget my past. However, anytime I found myself in a lonely place, the memories come back to haunt me. For this reason, I hated being alone. I was always yearning for company. No matter how irrelevant the person may be to me, their presence always helped me to forget.
I read some motivational books and articles online and one idea that kept circulating in all of them was that the best way to fight your fears was to face it head-on. This would mean forcing myself to make male friends. I naturally didn’t get along with men. However, if professionals said it would make me better, I just had to give it a try.
In retrospect, I don’t think I would have given any of those guys a chance to come close to me if I knew about Arizona male escorts earlier. The first guy that I decided to use as my healing therapy was a work colleague. He was fond of complimenting my looks and all but I never gave him a chance. When I decided to work on myself, it was easy to get him into my game.
The first time I let him visit me at my house, it felt kind of odd—like someone was choking my throat. I found it difficult to breathe. But I guess he didn’t notice any of these. I guess I felt that way because it was what my uncle usually did to me anytime he wanted to abuse me. I walked into the bathroom and took my bath. I stepped out unclad and bent over. During the episode with my uncle, I had to stop struggling at some point to save me scars and pain.
Immediately, he saw my gesture as an open invitation and stripped. Everything happened so fast. Since I felt some pleasure, for the first time in my life, I decided not to think too much about it. I soon got tired of him. He loved the fact that he was getting free pleasure, but I didn’t feel the same. I wanted a solution to my problem and I thought he was wasting my time. I tried another guy but still the same effect. It was my search for the right guy that led me to Arizona male escorts.
I searched online and found a lot of Arizona male escorts. I decided to choose a guy that was close to my vicinity. I didn’t know why but I had a hunch it would be better for me. As usual, I took my bath and came out unclad. I bent over and waited but nothing happened. I was surprised. When I looked at his face, I saw shock too. It was obvious he was surprised too.
He took my clothes and helped me to dress up. He made dinner for me and we ate. We chat through the evening until I fell asleep in his arms. I hired more Arizona male escorts and from them, I learned what love and affection truly meant. My healing has been fast since then.